Have you tried getting your own life?..................

Have you tried getting your own life?.................. Have you tried getting your own life?.................. That bastard used me again. The one from Canada that I was forced to sleep with thinking that if I didn't someone would lose a hand (the after affect of constant and without end brain washing--thinking of the worst). Dont worry about me though, after constant harassment and stalking from this man I have now made him a super celebrity just by being plagued by his existance. He offered me "love" though.........gee, I feel so much better now. Im offered "love"by someone that I never wanted in my life at all but that wouldn't leave me alone ever since I met him four years ago...................................................................................................................................................... And these are the kinds of people I have been plagued with in my life. All of them the same, all of them strangers that constantly stalk, humiliate and pursue me to the ends of the earth threatening me, a complete stranger, if they dont get their way. AND THIS HAPPENS TO ME AFTER I PAY RENT AND IN MY OWN DWELLING SPACE AS ONCE AGAIN MY RESIDENCE (WHICH BY THE WAY IS SUPPOSED TO BE MY SAFE PLACE) HAS NOW BEEN TURNED INTO A COMPTETION FOREFRONT THAT I DIDN'T AGREE TO PAYING FOR AND THAT I SPECIFICALLY RENTED THE ROOM TO GET AWAY FROM......I FIND OUT THAT MY ROOMATES ARE REPRESENTING OTHER GREEDY FUCKING SELFISH PEOPLE THAT WANT SOMETHING OUT OF ME ALSO.........iM NOT SAYING THAT I DONT LIKE MY ROOMMATES AS I HAPPEN TO CARE ABOUT THE OLDER MAN THAT I RESIDE WITH AND DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT THE LADY BUT I AM SAYING THAT THEY ARE VESSEL'S FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE USING MY PRESENCE IN THIS HOUSE TO AID THEMSELVES.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I HATE MY EXISTANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and you wonder where my agression comes from. I was raised normal but still, I am being used to "get everyone in" to whatever organization or group of people they want to be affiliated with all while being treated like shit the majority of the time and PAYING MY OWN WAY for people to fucking steal from me,every opportunity I have ever been presented with.................................................................................... I AM NOT HERE TO GET YOU IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM A PERSON THAT WOULD APPRECIATE GETTING ON WITH MY LIFE NOW YOU FUCKING SELFISH PIECE OF SHIT THAT COULDN'T GET YOURSELF IN THE FUCKING FRONT DOOR IF IT WAS WIDE FUCKING OPEN FOR YOU.............................................................................................................................................................. WHAT DID I GET YOU INTO THIS TIME.......HAVE ALIENS DECIDED YOUR THIER FRIEND AND NOT ME.................OR DID I GET YOU INTO THE INTERNATIONAL POLICE MEN'S ASSOCIATION.......THE SKULLS........DID I MAKE YOU A PRINCE OR A PRINCESS?.........ARE YOU EMPRESS MATERIAL NOW?...........ARE YOU IN WITH THE "IT'S SNOT" CREW..........ARE YOU IN WITH THE "NO" CROWD...........DID YOU MANAGE TO USE ME TO GET INTO THE SECRET SERVICE?...........ARE YOU THINKING YOU HAVE A SEAT IN THE WHITE HOUSE`?...........................ARE YOU IN WITH THE SEALS NOW?...........................LET ME GUESS YOUR A "SO" NOW.............DID THE QUEEN DECIDE THAT YOU SHOULD BE KNIGHTED FOR SOMETHING i ACTUALLY ACCOMPLISHED?.NO, THAT'S THE EYE THAT TAKES AWAY EVERYTHING FROM ME AND GIVES IT TO YOU WHILE TRYING TO MAKE ME APPEAR DESERVING OF THE ALL OUT FUCKING CRUELTY THEY CONTINUE TO DISH MY WAY, NEVER ALLOWING ME MY OWN PROBLEMS OR MY OWN PAIN AS EVERYTHING IS CONSTANTLY MADE TO REVOLVE AROUND WHOEVER THEY FUCKING WANT IT TO REVOLVE AROUND ............... ARE YOU AN OPERATIVE FUNCTIONING FOR THE CIA?..........ARE YOU USING ME SUPER FUCKING AMAZING BRAIN TO GAIN ACCESS TO INTELLIGENCE?........ARE YOU ANNIE'S BEST FRIEND NOW?...............................OH, I KNOW,MAYBE MY FAMILY HAS DECIDED TO LOVE YOU INSTEAD OF ME..................MAYBE YOUR IN WITH THE SICK IN THE FUCKING HEAD PEOPLE THAT SPEND ALL THEIR TIME PLAYING VIDEOS OF AN EXTREMELY LOW PERIOD OF TIME IN MY LIFE AND YOU ALL BET ON WHO WILL THROW UP DURING THE CURRENT SHOWING OF THE VIDEO..................OR DID YOU GET CREDITED WITH THE LAST THREE MONTHS THAT I HAVE HAD TO GO OUT OF MY WAY TO NOT CONSUME WATER ON BEHALF OF THE US MILITARY OR THE LAST THREE MONTHS WHERE I HAVE HARDLY ANY NUTRITION (VEGETABLES AND PRODUCE THAT I CAN'T AFFORD THANKS TO YOU USING ME AND EVERY PORTION OF MY EXISTANCE TO PAD YOUR WALLETS.................................................................... MAYBE ITS THAT HOLLYWOOD HAS DECIDED TO INCLUDE YOU IN WHATEVER TECHNICALLY MAKES ME HAPPY AND IN TURN SHUNNING ME FROM A LOT OF MY FRIENDS AND THE THINGS THAT I ENJOY........ mAYBE YOU WENT THROUGH MY ENTIRE LIFE AND DECIDED THAT YOU SHOULD GET TO RIDE ME LIKE A HORSE ALSO SO THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO YOUR OWN WORK AND THEN THAT MAKES YOU SOME SORT OF SOMETHING....................................ARE YOU IN????????????????? I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER KNOWING THAT AS USUAL, I DON'T HAVE SHIT TO SHOW FOR ALL THE SHIT PEOPLE LIKE YOU PUT ME THROUGH BUT THAT YOU WALK AWAY RICHER, SMARTER AND NOW HAVE MORE FRIENDS THANKS TO USING ME......................I HAVE THREE WORDS FOR YOU.................................................................................................................................................................. ALSO I LOVE HOW I PUT THINGS ON HOLD AT STORES AND YOU GO FUCKING BUY IT SO THAT I CAN'T HAVE IT. MOST THINGS NOT A BIG DEAL BUT SOME THINGS ARE ACTUAL NECESSITIES THAT I HAPPEN TO FIND THAT ARE REMOTELY ATTRACTIVE AND THEN YOU GO TO THE FUCKING STORE AND BUY IT JUST SO THAT I CANT HAVE ANYTHING THAT MAKES ME FUCKING HAPPY...................................................................................................................................... O...WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME? I AM YOUR NUMBER FUCKING ONE CASH COW AND YOU FUCKING NEVER GIVE ANYTHING BACK FOR ALL THE NO BRAIN HAVING PIECES OF SHIT THAT YOU CREDIT MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS TO..........I AM STARTING TO LOSE ALL FUCKING RESPECT FOR PEOPLE THAT HAVE TO NOT ONLY USE THE POOREST PERSON ON EARTH TO MAKE THEIR FAVORITES LOOK STELLAR TO THE WORLD BUT THAT YOU DONT EVEN BOTHER PROPERLY COMPENSATING THE PERSON CREATING ALL THESE PEOPLE THAT EVERYONE IS FUCKING BOWING TO ALL THE FUCKING TIME................................................................................................................. IM SICK OF EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I DONT EVER GET ANYTHING OUT OF ANYTHING THAT I DO FOR YOU....AND FOR YEARS AT A TIME.................... i DONT EVER GET ANYTHING FROM U AT ALL BUT ANOTHER YANK AT THE CARPET FROM UNDER MY FEET..................................................................................................................................................................................................................... AND YES, I AM AWARE THAT THE BLACK POPULATION WATCHES ME IN THE KITCHEN SOMEHOW OF THE HOME THAT I RESIDE IN AND SINCE i'VE BEEN EATING LIKE A FUCKING MANIAC LATELY (BUT STILL LOSING WEIGHT) YOU USE THIS AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO SOME OTHER SHITTY THING TO ME WHILE USING YOUR FAVORITE FUCKING CRUTCH OF ALL TIME......PROBABLY TOOK THE RACISM ANGLE TO JUSTIFY YOUR CRUELTY WHEN YOU KNOW iM NOT FUCKING RACIST. YEAH, I HEARD THE MAN BEHIND ME AT THE LIBRARY TWO DAYS AGO MAKING SNORTING NOISES WHEN I WAS THINKING ABOUT FOOD ETC.......AND I ALSO HEARD THE LADY AT ROSS TELL THE OTHER BLACK LADY THAT SHE IS THE REASON I MAY END UP KILLING MYSELF............................................................................................. THE PROOF OF WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO MY LIFE IS ALL FUCKING AROUND ME AND YOU ALL FUCKING DAY AND EVERYONE ACTS LIKE I'VE DONE SOMETHING FUCKING WRONG............................................................................................................................... AT THIS POINT YOUR LUCKY IM FUCKING STUFFING MY FACE INSTEAD OF ON YOUR GOD DAMNED DOORSTEP PREPARED TO COLLECT FROM YOU WHAT YOU FUCKING HAVE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME IN THIS LIFETIME...............YOU'RE STARTING TO GO WAY TO FUCKING FAR AND EVEN THOUGH SOME OF YOU DO SHIT TO ME ON PURPOSE TO SEE IF I'LL GET ALL "CARRY" (AS IN, THE MOVIE) ON YOU, IM THINKIN THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T TAKE SOMEONE THAT FAR AS THE SITUATION LOSES ALL ITS HUMOR WHEN ITS YOU THAT STARTS LOSING YOUR LIFE OR THE LIFE OF SOMEONE YOU LOVE, DOESN'T IT? iM TELLING YOU..........STOP....................................................................... REMEMBER.....YOU'VE COST ME FRIENDS, FAMILY, LOVED ONES, ASSOCIATIONS THAT ARE DECENT, MATERIAL ITEMS, MY DIGNITY, MY CHILDREN, PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY LOVED ME, YOU'VE COST ME MILLIONS OF DOLLARS THAT I EARNED, MY REPUTATION AS A NORMAL DECENT PERSON, AND THE WORST THING OTHER THAN COSTING ME MY CHILDREN WITH YOUR FUCKING GREED IS THAT YOU MADE ME CHANGE THE KIND AND TENDER HEARTED BEAUTIFUL LOVING CREATURE THAT I WAS MEANT TO BE ON THIS EARTH.AND FORCED I REPEAT, FORCED ME TO BECOME SOMEONE THAT IS A SHELL OF WHAT I ONCE WAS, LITERALLY, AS I HAVE ACTUALLY LOST MOST FEELING TOWARD ALL THAT CONTINUE TO THINK THAT THEY GET TO "go" IF THEY FUCKING HURT ME IN SOME WAY, SHAPE OR FORM............i LOVED HER.......THE PERSON THAT I WAS MEANT TO BE...............SHE'S STILL THERE,BUT BEHIND A GRANITE FUCKING WALL TWENTY FOUR HOURS A DAY,SEVEN DAYS A WEEK.....BUT HEY.......AT LEAST YOU GOT IN.................................................................................................................. BY THE WAY........IF YOU TRY TO PASS MY BEAUTIFUL INTELLIGENT,PRESENCE ON THIS EARTH AS GROUPIE MATERIAL ONE MORE TIME, YOU MIGHT BE THE ONE WITH THE ACTUAL PROBLEM............................................................................................................................................................. I AM NOT A LESBIEN, NOT GAY AND WAS NEVER REFERRING TO CASEY ANTHONY WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT I WAS HOLDING A DOLLAR BILL IN HONOR OF MY STEP SISTER KACY (MY FATHER'S STEP DAUGHTER THROUGH MARRIAGE)............................IM SICK OF YOU ATTATCHING WIERD ASS PEOPLE, BAD PEOPLE, killers and bizarre PEOPLE TO MY FUCKING EXISTANCE. Your going to feel so fucking dumb when you find out that not only did I not have anything to do with my son's death but that i've been telling you the truth all along. Laci Renee Issel 11/25/12 11:41 pm