They showed you wrong pictures of what they said was my vagina.....I am not, nor have I ever been, a hermaphradite and I also don't ever wish to have a sex change......How many times does one soul have to communicate this to the world.

I dont copy and paste anything other than notes off my phone from the notebook and memo section of my pho

I'm tired of being forced by anyone into anything, don't care what entity is doing the forcing, I'm sick of it, literally. I've never forced anyone into anything in the majority of this existence and am not understanding the reason everyone is so fucking selfish to always think that I owe them anymore of my looted life. I literally don't care what entity is doing it as you've all forced me into predicaments and your ways of doing things one to many times....I'm surprised I even have had to say this as the last ten years of tears should have been your first indication.....maybe I should have had your love support and protection a long time ago and I wouldn't be this far gone, but your methodical abuse has finally caught up with me....and you because now I don't care enough about you to even do anything about it anymore.........as obviously you've cared so little for me by the way, if I go somewhere I am not running as I am not a fugitive and have never been the terrorist you made America believe I was in order to give away my life to a fraud. by the way this isn't a copy of an original text..I wrote it and I am the original the only thing I copy are email addresses from Craigslist to my email you must be watching the other person type and do things on her phone. and I'm smarter than her. Laci Renee Issel

im binging, on what ever i can because ive been in mental turmoil for many years now and nrace yourself, im gonna eat and drink some things tjat your mot used to me injesting (things i gave up for you and your causes) and i dont give a flying fuck if you call me a pig in the process, im syressed to the hilt with no love in sight, as usual

I might actually consume something that may give you a reality check and make you nervous because you've gotten so fucking spoiled with me fighting for your causes that you took me for granted...I assure you I'd rather have some portion of my own life back bit I bet your so consumed with what I can do for you and blaming me for things that have nothing to do w/me that I'd bet what's left of my life that you don't even know I'm broken hearted or that I've been sexually active because I'm sick of you requiring me to be a God damn nunnery ...have a wonderful day.. and although I wont ever be a Hooker I will however always be a woman and sometimes the only way to feel truly feminine is to have a man inside me as I've waited on some of you for so long that I feel more like a child than a woman and to be.honest I've met some wonderful men lately that seem to know exactly what I need to feel like a woman ... . .no offense to hookers at all and no I meant that I wasn't trying to get revenge (the second post below) you've had every chance to make me yours and to actually embrace the unconditional love I've been giving you all along, now I'd like to see what your made of on the unconditional side of things because if you remember correctly I was always celibate while you were having sex now I'm tired of my feminine needs going Gunmetal so rather than continue feeling neglected I've opted to do what I can about it-it isn't rocket science. Love you Lace R Issel 5/21/13 2:23PM

hopefully your not offended by the below post but sometimes i just get sick of trying to make excuses for everyones abuse toward me

What if my life over the last ten years had been yours...and then what if after living through it you were continually made to look like you were the cause of everyone's suffering when you barely survived all the monstrocities that were aimed at you. Laci Renee issel 5/21/13 1:45 pm

seriously, I'm so tired of people hurting me on purpose that I don't think ill ever recover because my ability to trust anyone is completely destroyed, so thank you to every greedy bitch who only used and abused me to circumvent having to actually put some work in that was not only memorable but actually any sort of asset to this planet so you drained me dry of any sort of lifeforce I ever had rather than to actually be a contributing entity to anything.....I'm not anyone's seal....especially a greedy as fuck piece of shit that one day will realize the error of ones ways...rot in hell (the hell you put me through is nothing compared to the legacy you have created officially for yourself) Laci Renee Issel the real one typing at 2:52 am in the morning. at this point, after repeated exposure to people hurting me on purpose I sadly report feeling absolutely no loyalty toward anyone or anything and have felt nothing but pain for a lifetime, now its your turn to "feel" as I officially have lost all feeling toward anyone I once loved, you just kept pushing me way to far.....for every ounce of love I ever gave you, you gave me false humiliations, suffering, isolation from anything that I could ever relate to or brought me happiness not to mention took from me , candy, like from a baby, anything and everything I ever loved cared about or held dear and I can only hope you are blessed with the same lack of regard for anything that would aid you in making it through an utter hell so immense that you literally pray for death every time you have to pull yourself up off the ground because the only one thing you have in life is a neverending "start over" that never leads to anything other than pain while you watch everyone around you live the life you actually created....I never tried to hurt anyone ever on purpose and went out of my way to alieviate the pain and suffering of others only to have someone kick me whenever I was down, I've never done anything other than try to twist myself in a pretzel trying to love you and didn't do it for Brownie points, did it because it comes natural to me to be concerned for you and to want to allieviate pain for you but now I realize I wasted my time energy and the air I breath on most of you...I "feel" so fucking beyond abused.and taken advantage of as I realize that I practically had to grovel just to help your selfish ass not suffer...you sure as fuck never tried to make it easy to be what you thought was me agreeing to be your Jesus....you thought you were going, aren't you in for the surprise of your life....moron, you hurt the only thing that would have done that for you....I'm so tired of anyone that has repeatedly hurt me....and all this comes from a woman that literally was robbed of ever being permitted of being vulnerable while you never stopped hurling insults that constantly referred to me being made into a man just for having the tenacity of spirit that kept me going with a will to live that helped many people from the past who sufferered catastrophies that could have annihilated anyone's will to survive, man or woman, but didn't quite ever kill the spirit inside....I lived and instead of celebrating my feminine spirit that always had at least the love I've always had toward every living thing and holding on like hell to any ounce of gentleness I ever had left, you mocked, penalized and made fun of me while stripping me further of any feminity I had left after being forced to be stronger than most men for such an extended period of time where I was being methodically hunted, stalked, abused and humiliated for the sake of people that don't feel an ounce of remorse for exposing me to it...I was offered a sex change opporation, to change me from female to male as punishment for living through it....I don't know how this has happened to me but I know that I'm taking what vulnerability and feminity I have left and just hope to God that someone finally puts you in your place before I take my last breath or at least shortly there after...revenge isn't even the word and has nothing to do with my spirit on this earth but people have killed for way less than what you've done to me, throughout the ages and someone is gonna want to sleep with some piece at night knowing there is one less hitler out there to deal with, it has nothing to do with me anymore, you did it to yourself and I'm to tired to stop people from finding fault with you and even if I wasn't to tired you'd abuse me again and seal the deal for yourself because your a moron....I might be dealing with a cognitive disorder and am not always understanding the things I'm supposed to understand but you, you've just been given way to many luxeries without paying any dues at all and that makes you a moron to try and intentionally hurt someone that's thru paying dues for a selfish population of people that does nothing other than try to hurt me.

as usual, tried to do something normal that everyone else does and suddenly I'm the bad guy....everyone so used to me sacrificing portions of my existance for them and their causes that I am litterally a bitch in their eyes whenever I attempt to resume normal function on the level that I'm used to, my life isn't a life, its their springboard for all their causes and all their hopes and dreams, there's nothing in it at all for me yet I'm treated everyday of my life as if I am so ungreatful. Laci Renee Issel 10:27 am 5/21/13,...... ............... "urine" or "your in" is all I heard him say to whoever was listening...I assume that means that someone else managed to hurt me for fame fortune or personal profit.....and I'm so numb from my entire life being given away that all I feel is.....hunger. LACI Renee Issel 2:28 AM 5/21/13...,.... . . Once upon a time there lived a neglected girl who simply wished she could twirl. But no one would let her. The End. Laci Renee Issel. 5:33 am 5/4/13

Im at the hampton inn in Prescott Valley using their computer and this older man asks to use the computer and I offer to immeadiately get off the computer so as to respect my elders but he insists that if Im not going to be much longer that he will come back in a half hour, so I agree even after multiple attempts to allow him usage......What mind fuck does he try to pull with me when he returns to the computer room and I immeadiately hop up to give him access to the computer? He actually says the following statement to me verbatum....."I certainly hope you got what you wanted accomplished because you have been most uncooperative".......I told him to get the fuck away from me with his attempt to mind fuck me after I repeatedly tried to grant him his request........in this sort of case where someone just makes shit up about you on purpose I say fuck respecting my elders......I no longer let anyone talk to me like that anymore.

Draft only as I dont need another selfish biiiiiiaaaaachh passing my words off as her own (writing from one of two of my phones)

I want to run the halls.........I want to inhale the icy air........I want to smile until my cheeks are sore....I want to laugh until I cant breathe......I want to come whenever I want.......I want a mans hands on my body (loving).....I want to dive in the ocean in Southern California.....I want to be totally surprised in a good way for once....I want someone to find and get to me for once.....I want to be on top.......I want my hair long like I used to be.......I want them to stop lying trying make me appear disgusting when they've never even been near my vagina......I want to go on a yaught......I want to fly as much as possible.......I want to get rid of this weight......I want to drive on the autobaughn.......I want to go to tibet........I want to have an ice sculpture at my wedding in an ice castle......I want laser lights in my bedroom.......I want to talk to my son and know he hears me even though he has passed away......I want to be around people that love me unconditionally......I want water when in heat.........I want to help an old person and make their day.......I want people to stop hurting me......I want to be allowed to progress.......I want to be around someone familiar and be incluye........Writen by me Laci Renee issel around March 6th 2013....