"B" is WAY out of control this time

Heres the update

"B" thinks that he or she is in control of my life probably because of repeated sabbotage.

Im being accused of being "manipulative" for trying to spend as much time with my ailing 5 day old son who has a 62% chance of dying.  What kind of monster is STILL trying to make an innocent woman look bad as she stands next to her world (her son) hoping that he will live and trying to be there as much as possible not to mention try to keep him as comfortable as possible when he has tubes sticking out of every possible vein and lays there paralyzed.  

What kind of asshole finds a problem with a mom trying to be there for her kid.  

"B" has also accused me of being "dangerous".  What the fuck are you talking about?  Im too busy worrying about my child to be dangerous.

You "B", at this point are the slimyest of slime I have ever had the misfortune of having to be exposed to not to mention the most SELFISH PERSON I have ever met in my life to use my son and his ailment as a step up in you fame.  I'd love for you to accuse me of this stuff to my face like a "real" person.  You fucking coward.  

All your sabotage, all your self righteousness, all you set-ups to continuously attack a girl with autism makes you the most m0nstrous thing I have ever met.

Not only that but now the accusation that "parents" supposedly think that I am "crazy" when if they were listening to the right person (obviously they are tuned in to the wrong person) they would never arrive at that conclusion.  

You are a fucking monster for what you have done to my life and talk about insecure.....your so insecure that people wont think your a hero that you continuously have to lie about an innocent girl (me) and constantly attack and accuse me of various things in order to make yourself look good.  Why cant you rely on your own personality to make these people adore you.  You trash me to look good which means that with out me you aint shit.  Maybe I would change my opinion of you if you could do something decent in life without hurting me.  

Rot in hell for all your carefully concocted plots that are sure to catch up with you, you using sack of shit.  Rot in hell.

You feed off innocent people, me and my child your latest victims.

Now I am being accused of being some sort of sex offender of course to make yourself look good and as usual its not true.

Why wont they ever leave me and my life alone

They make me compete for my own flesh. They make me cry and they hurt me on purpose. Now they use my son against me and have some other girl pumping breast milk for him. Why doesn't this ever end?
What did I ever do to deserve this and why wont they just leave us (me and my son) alone. I am not giving him up for adoption, not leaving him permanately and not making this deal with them. They terrorize every portion of my existence. I cant handle them taking any more love from me. They take everything. They think that I want all these things that I dont want. All I wanted was a simple life and my little boy. This girl never stops trying to hurt me, shes obsessed with trying to be me but doesn't really want to be me because being me means having nothing, no love.

OH AND BY THE WAY, YOU FUCKING IDENTITY THEIF, ID LIKE YOU TO EXPLAIN TO THE REALLY IMPORTANT PEOPLE THAT HAVE NOW MET YOU (WHICH IS SUPPOSED TO BE ME

HOW YOU PASSED OFF MY WWW.SEPTEMBERLATITUDES.WORDPRESS.COM and WWW.SEPTEMBERLATITUDE.WORDPRESS.COM (ONE WITH AN "S" AND ONE WITHOUT) BLOGS AS YOUR OWN BECAUSE I NEVER POSTED A PICTURE OF MYSELF ON EITHER ONE OF THOSE WEBSITES AND THAT GAVE YOU ALL THE ROOM APPARENTLY THAT YOU NEEDED TO SWOOP IN AND ONCE AGAIN TAKE CREDIT FOR SOMETHING THAT WASN'T YOURS.....MY LIFE. 

NOW YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE AND YOU ARE SUPPOSEDLY IN LIKE FLYNN WITH SOME VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE AS I AM LEFT WITH AN INCREADIBLY SICK NEWBORN INFANT AND BEING ACCUSED OF BEING JEALOUS OF YOU--------------A THEIF.

YOUR CONTINUED SLIMEYNESS IS AMAZING.

YOU WANT TO BE ME SO F-ING BAD I SUGGEST THAT YOU ACTUALLY PUT IN THE EFFORT.  I HOPE YOUR HELICOPTOR CRASHES AND EVERYONE LIVES BUT YOU.  I MIGHT TAKE THAT STATEMENT BACK SOME OTHER DAY WHEN I'VE HAD A CHANCE TO COOL DOWN BUT FOR NOW I STAND BY MY STATEMENT.

WHAT I REALLY HOPE FOR IS THAT ONE DAY YOU ARE FOUND OUT AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL OFFER ME AND MY SON AN APPOLOGY FOR ALL THE AGGRESSIVENESS THAT WE HAVE ENDURED FROM THEM BECAUSE THEY WERE TOO BUSY BELIEVING A TOTAL LYER WHILE YOUR PEOPLE WERE PAYING OFF AUDIOLOGISTS TO LIE TO THEM AND SAY THAT I WAS LYING WHEN I WAS SPEAKING THE TRUTH THE ENTIRE TIME.  ONE DAY, YOU'LL BE LUCKY IF ANYONE HAS RESPECT LEFT FOR YOU WHEN THE TRUTH COMES OUT.

NOW ALL OF THE PEOPLE I AM SURROUNDED BY ARE YOUR AFFILIATIONS AND I AM SWIMMING IN A SEA OF SHARKS.  I JUST GAVE BIRTH YESTERDAY, MY SON IS GRAVELY ILL AND I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THE MOST RECENT THREAT OF BEING LOCKED IN SOME SORT OF PADDED ROOM IF I SAY "NO" TO YOUR DEMANDS.  YOU ARE REALLY BOUND FOR HELL.  I HOPE THE WHOLE WORLD FINDS OUT THE TRUTH YOU CHARLATAIN SELFISH FAKE ASS BITCH THAT IS WILLING TO RUIN AN INNOCENT GIRLS LIFE AND THAT OF HER SON.  THERE IS ONLY ONE PLACE FOR YOU. 

You are one selfish bitch

Because of you and your insane tactics to look like some sort of hero I am once again left in a war zone with false accusations of various crimes, threats of being given shots for an illness that I dont have, and an infant that is facing a 40-62% mortality rate.  Your theatrics are costing not only my life now but the life of my son is hanging in the balance with me being subtly threatened with his non-recovery if I dont "do things your way" and in the process I am being accused of being jealous of you, the biggest orchestration of the 21st century----you might be on that "members only" helicopter flight but your karma is coming back at you, you are endangering my life and the life of my son and have been for the last 10 months.  Why would I be jealous of someone that has to almost kill an infant in order to reach their desired status in life.  This baby is NOT yours simply because you are a master orchestration artist.  Your going down for attempted murder of an infant so that you can look like a fucking hero.  This wont be forgotten and your tactics are not only pathetic and traumatising but totally chicken shit.  You make me want to throw up the way you feed off me and you dont even have enough class to STOP when the life of an innocent infant is threatened.  Rot in hell bitch.

My son is born and now they use him to continue their cruel game

Im pretty much furious. My son is here and in bad shape, he cant breathe on his own and Im dealing with assholes using me and him to play their cruel games again. He's fighting for his life and they are using him as a weapon against me. They are accusing me of wanting 2 again, being okay (for which they threaten the health and well being of my little boy), and still demanding time for a crime that didn't happen and is a double standard (one of many crimes) I have weird police games going on, the super illustrious law firm that has stood by while I continually get abused and used is here (but not to help me), I still have arrowhead mental health stalking me, and again dirty cops and sherriffs threatening me, gangsters trying to cash in and everyone lying about everything that has anything to do with me, buddha, and the truth. I was told that I was lying about truths Ive been speaking of for centuries. The whole thing makes me ill.
My little beautiful boy, paralyzed and cant breath on his own and these selfish asses still expect me to jump through hoops to play a game while Im in tears worrying if he will live or die because his condition is severe and uncertain. Still they lie and accuse me of being "wet" around my own kid and certain individuals that have certain physical features. They are still lying about everything. Im trying to have a normal existance with just me and my little boy and they are still making it all about them and their dumb ass celebrity "members only" game. My kid cant breath and they are still trying to crown "elite" based on my actions or lack of action. Im so sick of this constant expectation of making me compete for my own life-its twisted. My son isn't some sort of prize to be won and no matter what he doesn't belong to you and never will. I hope all of these people that are facilitating this game while I am trying to attend to my son, rot in hell.
All of them......even if there isn't an actual hell, I hope all of them find themselves in some sort of equivalent.....all of them.
Gangsters think I am competing to be some sort of side dish---no thanks, and brittish people trying to "set me up", spanish people threatening me for visiting my own child, african american people (not all of them but a select game playing group) trying to say that I am racist (Im not but have strange word associations because of my autism that are impossible to explain to people that dont deal with autism), white people so evil that, even with all that I've been through and have been exposed to, continually amaze even me with their cruelty, and what seems like everyone trying to get me to give them "time". Im starting to wonder if anyone is on my side as I am put under a microscope and analyzed while my son is laying in an incubator fighting for his life. They are using him now against me and that is going way to far.
He's been through hell in 24 hours and they still use him in their horrifying game. Sometimes I just want to scream.
Leave me and my kid alone, play your game somewhere else and if you keep saying "okay" to me I might just forget my manners and spit on you, because your kind of people use peoples personalities as a means to torment, hurt and punish them...you threaten me for being "okay" when I dont even know what the hell you are talking about. this isn't about your dumb ass game, this is about my son. I am here and everything that happens here is about him....you selfish ass.