SAME OVERWEIGHT VERSION OF WHAT YOU REFUSE TO UNDERSTAND THAT I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT EVEN WANT A MAN AT ALL AND YOU KEEP TRYING TO MAKE ME "DO" THESE MEN THAT REPULSE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD, I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO THIS OVERWEIGHT CHUBBY PROTOTYPE THAT KEEP INSISTING THAT I DO!!!!!!!!
IM ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE LIKE MATHEW LILLIARD-=- WHY WOULD I WANT TO "DO" SOMETHING THAT IM NOT EVEN ATTRACTED TO. I DONT EXPECT MATTHEW LILLIARD TO "DO" ME SO WHY WOULD YOU EXPECT ME TO "DO" SOMEONE IM NOT EVEN ATTRACTED TO.
AS FAR AS MY CHILD GOES, HE IS 20 DAYS OLD AND I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN TO HOLD MY OWN CHILD. YOU KEEP INSISTING THAT I LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND.....MY BELONGINGS (WHICH AT THIS POINT CONSISTS OF 1 BAG AND A PHOTO ALBUM OF MY SON........AND YOU EVEN EXPECT ME TO LEAVE BEHIND MY CHILD!!!!! WHAT IS WITH YOU PEOPLE? YOU DONT ASK MY PERMISSION TO IMPLANT MY KID WITH A SMART CHIP AND SOMEHOW YOU THINK THAT I SHOULD HAVE TO LEAVE HIM BEHIND NOW THAT HE HAS A SMART CHIP IN HIM THAT I DIDN'T GIVE CONSENT TO OR HAVE ANY KNOWLEDGE OF. YOU JUST KEEP PUSHING ME AND THE LAW TO ITS OUTER LIMITS. AS A MATTER OF FACT YOU REFUSE TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THE LAW AS FAR AS ME AND MY SON ARE CONCERNED. I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO HOLD HIM AND YOU KEEP SAYING THAT THE DOCTOR IS "WITH THE BABY". HE'S AN INFANT, 20 DAYS OLD, AND NOT YOURS TO DECIDE ANYTHING ABOUT. I BIRTHED THAT CHILD AND HE LOVES ME! YOU KEEP SAYING THAT HE IS COUGHING, HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE, HE GAGS AS A RESULT OF THE MASSIVE TUBE DOWN HIS THROUGHT BUT HE DOESN'T COUGH.
WHEN HE MOVES AROUND THE TUBE MOVES IN HIS THROUGHT CAUSING HIM TO GAG. I AM GROWING VERY TIRED OF YOU ALWAYS TRYING TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE HE SOMEHOW DOESN'T WANT ME. YOU LIE, YOU EXAGGERATE, YOU MAKE THINGS UP TO MAKE IT APPEAR AS IF MY KID IS REJECTING ME. HOW AWEFUL CAN YOU GET? IM A NEW MOM WITH A SICK BABY AND YOU KEEP PLAYING GAMES WITH ME AND MY KID TRYING TO DRIVE A WEDGE IN BETWEEN BOTH OF US!!!!!!!!! IS THIS SOMETHING THAT YOU DO WITH EVERY NEW MOM? TRY TO BELITTLE HER, AND MAKE HER THINK THAT SHE IS REJECTED? YOU ARE REALLY HARD UP TO TAKE AWAY A BABY THAT IS WANTED.
LET ME ASK YOU THIS ....."WHEN A CHILD THROWS A TANTRUM IN THE STORE AND IS KICKING AND SCREAMING, DO YOU SAY THAT THE DOCTOR IS "WITH THE CHILD"? IS THIS A MEANS TO TAKE AWAY THE CHILD FROM ITS MOTHER? THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE SAYING IN MY CASE AND MY KID DOESN'T EVEN KICK OR SCREAM! MY CHILD IS AN INFANT AND YOU ARE ATTEMPTING TO SAUDER A BOND BETWEEN US. I GUESS I SHOULD FEEL FLATTERED THAT MY KID IS SO HIGHLY SOUGHT AFTER BUT I DONT FEEL FLATTERED AT ALL....WHAT YOUR DOING IS ABUSIVE, CRUEL AND UNKIND.
YOU SAY THAT MY BABY IS MINE BASED ON WHETHER OR NOT I TAKE HIS BABY ALBUM FOR CHRIST SAKE! IM NOT LEAVING HIS PICTURES BEHIND WHEN I BARELY GET TO SEE HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE. ARE YOU CRAZY? BOTH OF US SHOULD BE PROTECTED AND I SHOULD'T HAVE TO LEAVE MY CHILD BEHIND IN PERSON OR IN PICTURES EVER EXCEPT TO HAVE TO COMMUTE BETWEEN HERE AND THE COUNTY THAT WE ARE FROM TO TAKE CARE OF THINGS THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME AND MY SON.
I WANT TO BE A MOM DAMMIT, I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO JUMP THROUGH HOOPS RIGHT NOW. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE HAPPIEST TIME OF MY LIFE AND YOU ARE RUINING EVERYDAY OF IT WITH YOUR CRUEL EXPECTATIONS........YOU NEVER ALLOW ME TO BE A PERSON!!!!!!!! ITS ALWAYS ABOUT PASSING SOME SORT OF TEST ALL THE TIME. FOR 6 YEARS YOU'VE BEEN RUNNING ME THROUGH YOUR OBSTACLE COURSE WITH NO REWARD OF ANY KIND. YOU WONT EVEN ALLOW ME TO HAVE WHAT I WORKED FOR!!!!! YOU TAKE IT UPON YOURSELVES TO JUST IMPLANT A CHIP IN MY KIDS BODY WITHOUT SO MUCH AS EVEN ASKING ME, I ALMOST PASSED OUT TODAY(I STARTED TO TRY AND WALK SOMEWHERE AND EVERYTHING TURNED BLACK AND I LOST MY VISION), MY KIDNEYS ARE STARTING TO FAIL FROM LACK OF LIQUIDS (MY URINE IS BROWN) AND LACK OF FOOD AND NOW YOU WONT PROTECT ME UNLESS I GIVE UP MY CHILD. ITS NEVER ENOUGH SUFFERING FOR YOU TO FINALLY GET OFF YOUR HIGH HORSE AND HELP ME AND MY SON LIVE A NORMAL LIFE. YOU JUST REFUSE TO PROTECT ME AFTER ALL I HAVE PUT FORTH FOR THIS COUNTRY. NOW YOU WANT HIM AND NOT ME. YOU MIGHT GET YOUR WISH BECAUSE MY HEART IS FAILING AS WELL AS MY KIDNEYS AND AT THIS RATE I GIVE MYSELF AT THE MOST8 MONTHS BEFORE IM DEAD FROM ONE OR THE OTHER. YOU WOULD THINK THAT YOU COULD AT LEAST PROVIDE 8 MONTHS WORTH OF STRESS FREE HAPPINESS WITH MY SON BEFORE MY BODY GIVES OUT FROM 6 YEARS WORTH OF STRESS AND ABUSE. IVE DONE NOTHING BUT FIGHT FOR THE FREEDOM THIS COUNTRY IS SUPPOSED TO PROVIDE FOR EVERY CITIZEN AND IN THE PROCESS WAS COMPLETELY LIED ABOUT, ABUSED AND DISRESPECTED. YOU CANT EVEN FIND IT IN YOUR SOUL TO ALLIEVIATE THE REMAINING STRESSES BEFORE I DIE. MY SON MAKES MY EYES LIGHT UP AND IS PUSHING ME HARDER.
YOU MIGHT BE AT A CROSSROADS ONE DAY IN LIFE AND THIS MIGHT HAVE BEEN YOUR TEST.....................THAT YOU FAILED.
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