I DONT HAVE SCHITZOPHRENIA AND YOUR NOT TAKING AWAY MY CHILD

IM NOT PLAYING GAMES AND I AM A REGULAR MOM THAT YOU REFUSE TO ALLOW TO BE A NORMAL PERSON WITH AUTISM. I WAS JUST TOLD THAT I "HAD" MY SON AND NOW BECAUSE I GO BACK TO MY HOTEL LIKE A REGULAR PERSON THAT SHAPES ME AND MY SONS FATE SOMEHOW.
YOU ARE SO FREAKEN ABUSIVE. YOU EXPECT FROM ME WHAT YOU WONT EVEN DO YOURSELVES. I'VE BEEN THREATENED LIKE 70 TIMES TODAY FOR NO REASON OTHER THAN A BUNCH OF WEALTHY PEOPLE HAVE DECIDED THAT MY CHILD BELONGS TO THEM. IM TIRED OF IT.........I'VE HAD IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE A SICK CHILD AND YOU ARE CRUEL TO EXPECT ME TO PLAY THESE GAMES! YOU DONT OWN ME BASED ON WHERE I STAY, I DONT HAVE SCHITZOPHRENIA BECAUSE YOU WANT TO TAKE MY CHILD AWAY!
I DONT EVEN EAT OR DRINK ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SICK OF YOUR CONSTANT INTRUSION IN MY LIFE, NONE OF YOU SEEM TO CARE THAT YOUR TEARING UP A MOTHER AND HER CHILD!!!!!! MY KID IS LAYING THERE SICK IN THE HOSPITAL AND YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH KEEPING ME AND HIM APART. HE RESPONDS TO ME AND WHEN I WALKED IN THERE TODAY HE WAS FRANTIC AND PANICKED, THEN WHEN HE HEARD MY VOICE AND I PUT HIS HAND IN MINE, HE RELAXED AND STARTED FOCUSING ON MY VOICE. HE RELAXED IMMEADIATELY!!!!!!!!!!! YOU KEEPING ME AWAY FROM HIM IS HURTING HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE NEEDS MY COMFORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AN HOUR OF THE DAY IS NOT ADEQUATE TIME TO BOND WITH HIM OR TO COMFORT A BABY THATS GOT TUBES EVERYWHERE. YOU SEEM TO THINK THAT YOU CAN JUST WALK INTO MY LIFE AND TAKE MY BABY!!!!! IM NOT MENTALLY ILL, NOT A CRIMINAL AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUST DECIDE THAT YOU OWN US BASED ON WHERE I STAY.
WHY WONT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE, WHY WONT YOU JUST LEAVE ME AND MY SON ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM MORTIFIED BY THE ACTIONS OF HIS FATHER, JOHN BARROS, WHO SEEMS TO HAVE THE LARGEST, BIGGEST HEAD ABOUT HIMSELF THAT I'VE EVER SEEN. I SHOULDN'T TOTALLY GET MAD AT HIM RIGHT AWAY BUT PEOPLE ARE TELLING ME OF HIS QUEST FOR STARDOM AND THE USE OF OUR SON TO GET HIMSELF THERE. I ALSO HEAR THAT HE IS EMBARRASSED BY ME.....MY RESPONSE TO THAT.......YOU WEREN'T EMBARRASSED WHEN WE CREATED THIS CHILD, WERE YOU? I DONT REMEMBER YOU BEING THE SLIGHTEST BIT WORRIED ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH ME. I HAVE TO ALSO SAY THAT AGAIN.....IVE HAD SEX TWICE IN 3 YEARS AND AM AN INCREDIBLY INTELLIGENT, DECENT PERSON SO EMBARRASSMENT SHOULD NEVER BE THE WORD THAT IS USED WHEN SPEAKING OF THE MOTHER OF OUR BEAUTIFUL CHILD!!!!!!!!! YOU SHOULD BE WORKING WITH ME NOT AGAINST ME! OUR KID IS SICK DAMMIT AND YOUR ON SOME SORT OF POWER TRIP!
I WOULD NEVER KEEP YOU FROM HIM AND YOU SHOULD NEVER BE TRYING TO KEEP HIM FROM ME.....YOU WEREN'T EVEN AROUND AND TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST YOU HAVE ME TO THANK FOR YOUR NEW FOUND STARDOM!!!!!! WITHOUT ME HAVING OUR BABY YOU WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO TURN YOURSELF INTO WHAT YOU'VE BECOME AT THIS POINT. I HAVE DEFENDED YOU ALL ALONG AND HAD AN IMMENSE FAITH IN YOU THAT YOU EVENTUALLY WOULD WANT TO HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH OUR SON BUT YOU TOOK IT TO ANOTHER LEVEL AND USED IT TO HURT THE MOTHER OF YOUR SON WHICH CAN ONLY HURT OUR SON! I WAS WORRIED ABOUT YOUR MATURITY LEVEL BECAUSE YOU ARE ONLY IN YOUR 20'S AND ITS OBVIOUS THAT MY FEARS WEREN'T THAT FAR OFF, YOUR THINKING OF YOURSELF, YOUR NOT THINKING ABOUT WHATS BEST FOR OUR SON! HE NEEDS ME. HE NEEDS YOU. HE NEEDS BOTH OF US IF YOU ARE WILLING TO BE A PART OF HIS LIFE BUT HE IS NO OBJECT JOHN, HE'S A BABY, A REAL LIFE PERSON THAT GETS HIS COMFORT FROM HIS MOTHER!!!!!!! I WOULD NEVER KEEP HIM FROM YOU HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK OF TRYING TO KEEP HIM FROM ME? THAT IS IMMATURITY. YOU'VE HAD ALL THESE PEOPLE "WORKING" FOR YOU ALL ALONG (ELANA ALLAN WHO STARTED THIS WHOLE THING AND LIED ACCUSING ME OF TRYING TO DISCONNECT OUR KID FROM THE VENTILATOR AND WHO KNOWS WHO ELSE) THEY'VE GOT YOU LOOKING LIKE SOME SORT OF CHAMP AND HAVE DONE THEIR BEST TO TRASH ME......THE WHOLE TIME I WAS ALONE YOU HAD A NETWORK OF PEOPLE THAT OBVIOUSLY ARE WILLING TO PURGUR THEMSELVES IN ORDER TO GET YOU CUSTODY. THEY'VE DONE NOTHING BUT LIE ABOUT ME AND IN SOME VERY SERIOUS WAYS JOHN!!!! YOU ARE RISKING MY SAFETY AND I DONT APPRECIATE YOU BEING TOTALLY SELFISH. YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK BAD FOR NO REASON YET OFFERED NO HELP TO ME WHILE I WAS PREGNANT, YOU HUNG UP ON ME AND CHANGED YOUR PHONE NUMBER WHEN I TRYED TO GET YOUR HELP WITH THE MAN THAT WAS STALKING US. YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT OUR SON DURING HIS DEVELOPMENT BUT SUDDENLY YOU WANT TO TRY AND MAKE ME LOOK BAD? HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!
DONT EVER TRY AND SAY "SO" WHEN SPEAKING OF MY SON'S FEELINGS ABOUT THE ONLY PERSON THAT CALMS HIM AND THE ONLY PERSON THAT BUSTED HER ASS TO KEEP HIM ALIVE FOR 37 WEEKS WHILE BEING CHASED BY A STALKER THAT ATTEMPTED TO CONTROL AND KILL BOTH OF US AT LEAST TWICE IN THE 37 WEEKS OVER A 6000 MILE RADIUS. WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU EVER THINK THAT YOU ARE SOMETHING THAT HE NEEDS IN REPLACEMENT OF ME. I WAS THE ONE THAT WANTED HIM FROM THE MOMENT I GOT PREGNANT, I WAS THE ONE THAT WANTED THIS BABY AND HAVE NO DOUBT THAT I WILL BE A GREAT MOM. I WANTED HIM FROM THE BEGINNING.
The following statements directed at a multitude of stalkers and not my son's father John........
IM SICK OF YOUR THREATS!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO REASON TO BE IN MY LIFE AT ALL!!!!!!!!! GET OUT OF OUR LIVES AND LET US BE A NORMAL FAMILY. EVERYONE ELSE ON EARTH GETS TO BE A NORMAL PERSON BUT YOUR CRUEL GAMES AFFECT ME AND MY SONS ENTIRE DAY!!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO "TEST" ME ALL THE TIME, MY ONLY OBLIGATION IS MY KID AND I DONT OWE YOU ANYTHING, IM TIRED OF YOUR LIES, YOUR THREATS AND EVERYTHING ELSE.
ARE YOU THREATENED FOR SIMPLE THINGS SUCH AS GOING BACK TO YOUR HOTEL? HAVE YOU SUDDENLY DEVELOPED SCHITZOPHRENIA BECAUSE YOU GOT A RIDE SOMEWHERE? ARE PEOPLE CALLING YOU A SLUT FOR NOT EVEN SLEEPING WITH SOMEONE TO BEGIN WITH? YOU LOSE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS BASED ON WHAT DIRECTION YOU WALK IN? ARE YOU THREATENED WITH LEATHER STRAPS MERELY FOR BEING SOMEWHERE SOMEONE THINKS THAT YOU SHOULDN'T BE? ARE YOU LIED ABOUT BASED SOME STRANGE OCCURRANCE? ARE YOU PORTRAYED AS A CRIMINAL BASED ON WHAT SECTION OF TOWN YOU ARE IN OR SIMPLY BEING IN A STORE? THE ANSWER IS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

NONE OF YOU ENDURE WHAT ME AND MY SON ENDURE EVERYDAY AND TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST IVE NEVER SEEN A BIGGER BUNCH OF SELFISH PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME AND ARE EXPECTING ME AND MY SON TO, ALSO, DURING A VERY DIFFICULT TIME. YOU WANT TO PLAY, USING ALL YOUR RESOURCES. IM POOR BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!! YOU DONT EVER ALLOW ME TO BE A NORMAL PERSON. IM ALWAYS AFRAID TO DO BASICALLY ANYTHING BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT OUTLANDISH LIE YOU WILL COME UP WITH NEXT!!!!!! YOU'VE TURNED CUSTODY OF MY SON INTO A GAME AND THE FUNNY THING IS I DONT PLAY YOUR DUMB GAME BECAUSE I SEEM TO BE THE ONLY PERSON THAT SEEMS TO REALIZE THAT YOU ARE A COMPLETE STRANGER AND I DONT HAVE TO PLAY YOUR GAME, PASS YOUR TESTS, OR MEET YOUR CRITERIA FOR ANYTHING. I DONT KNOW YOU, YOU DONT KNOW ME AND I AM NOT MAKING ANY DEALS WITH YOU. ME AND MY SON ARE TIRED OF YOU THINKING THAT OUR ACTIONS ARE SOMEHOW UP FOR YOUR APPROVAL.
WE DONT WANT TO PLAY YOUR GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CREDIT FOR MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN GIVEN TO PEOPLE THAT NEVER EVEN PUT IN THE WORK, THEY JUST CLAIMED THAT MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS WERE THEIRS....A TOTAL LIE.
IM NOT A SHAME OR A CRIMINAL AND I AM ONE OF THE MOST LOVING PEOPLE I KNOW ON THIS PLANET......TAKE YOUR GAMES AND SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ---.
IM NOT LEAVING AND THE TRUTH WILL EVENTUALLY COME OUT ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO BOTH ME AND MY SON!!!!!!!
WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IS N O T JUST!!!!!!! WE DONT KNOW YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU NEED TO GO HOME AND LEAVE US ALONE AS WE DONT EVER TRY TO INTERFERE WITH YOUR EXISTANCE!!!!!!!!!! I DONT TELL YOU HOW TO LIVE YOUR LIFE, WHAT TO DO WITH YOUR KIDS AND I SURE DONT LIE ABOUT YOU TO TAKE AWAY NOT ONLY YOUR ASSETS BUT YOUR CHILDREN ALSO. HAVE SOME RESPECT!!!!!!!!!!!!
QUIT TRYING TO CONVINCE THE PRESIDENT THAT I AM SOMEHOW AGAINST HIM!!!!! YOUR LIES ARE AFFECTING NOT ONLY ME NOW, YOUR AFFECTING MY SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BY THE WAY TO THE FBI, SECRET SERVICE, AND THE WALL.........I'VE QUALIFIED MULTIPLE TIMES FOR RELOCATION BUT YOU KEEP HELPING EVERYONE ATTACHED TO ME RATHER THAN ME!!!!!!!!!!!! ME AND MY SON HAVE REPEATEDLY BEEN ASSAULTED THE ENTIRE TIME HE WAS DEVELOPING AND I HAVE BEEN BEGGING FOR HELP FROM YOU AND PRIVATE GROUPS OF PEOPLE FOR AGES NOW.
I'VE GOT PEOPLE THINKING THINGS ABOUT ME THAT ARE TOTALLY UNTRUE AND PEOPLE TELLING ME TO TAKE "MY TIME" FOR SOMETHING THAT NEVER HAPPENED AND BECAUSE I HAVE TO STAY IN THE CITY TO SEE MY SON. IM NOT LEAVING HIM UNTIL I HAVE TO. IM NOT ABANDONING MY KID JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK I SHOULD HAVE TO MAKE SOME SORT OF DEAL.