Explanation of my so called "Record"

I am really tired of being given permission to do anything in life, sick of being treated like a criminal by people that are trying to excuse their own malicious behavior. I am not a criminal and have only agreed to certain charges in the past because I have Asperger’s Syndrome (Autism) with no emotional support and was sitting in jail with gang members and people that I couldn’t relate to (mainly criminals) and instead of fighting false charges I agreed to accept charges if they would just let me out of that mentally abusive environment that they call “jail”.
I am not jail material and find it excruciating to have to now defend things that technically didn’t happen. Charges such as battery on a police officer happened on paper only and are explainable but are permanately haunting me now. The police officer was beating and dragging ME and when I tried to defend myself I was charged with battery.
Had I not been mentally traumatized by the event, maybe the option of sitting in jail for an additional period of a couple more weeks to prove that I didn’t do what they accused me of via a court hearing/trial, would have sounded appealing. This by the way were charges incurred in Santa Ana, CA and have nothing to do with the dirty sheriff from Alabama falsely imprisoning me and allowing me to get beaten by inmates. (This beating was video taped and broadcast over the last couple of years on YouTube and profited from by the inmates that took part) Some of these same inmates have continued to stalk, threaten and badger me over the last few years also. Now I am being threatened with being committed for an illness that I don’t have (these same “dirty” people keep trying to diagnose me with schitzophrenia (in order to gain a committal and be allowed to fully control me) They refuse to leave me alone. I have had aspergers syndrome (a form of Autism) all along and have been fully abused by these people just trying to make me an escort, prostitute, or some sort of person affiliated with their group of people. They have even stalked me to my hometown of Sonoma and San Mateo Counties (I spent equal time in both counties growing up) and have attempted to accuse me falsely of “stalking” some unknown, unidentified woman that has been stalking me. This is where I am from, I have transcripts to prove it and I have every reason and right to be here. I also have lifelong friends in both counties.
The charges on my “record” mainly involve some person that got put out by my mere existence and called in cops to get rid of me. This is how every encounter has always started. Most of the time, to my dismay, I ended up dealing with “dirty” law bending cops that make things up as they go along. And in the Santa Ana case, I was literally dragged a block down the street so that they could arrest me for trespassing at a certain address. I wasn’t there when the “cop” arrived so in order to take me in, he needed me to set foot on private property and when I agreed to uphold the law by not going back to the same location that I was previously told not to return to, he then proceeded to grab me and drag me there, where along the way I was beaten. When I attempted to defend myself because he was hurting me, I was charged with battery in addition to trespassing and who knows what else.
That brings me to the San Rafael charges that were incurred in 2007. As I was walking down the street in San Rafael, a “cop” of a moving police vehicle yelled for someone to “stop” that they were under arrest. He was behind me still driving his vehicle and I didn’t think anything of it because I hadn’t done anything to get arrested so I thought he must have been talking to someone else. Then he yelled “now your resisting arrest” and said to stop again and his vehicle was still in motion. I realized that he was in fact talking to me at this point and was totally baffled and confused as to why someone who hadn’t even verified my identity, let alone had not even stopped his vehicle yet, would be trying to arrest me. I stopped, thinking that it must be a case of mistaken identity and thought clearly that he would let me go once he ran my name and found out that I was “clean”.
He finally stopped his vehicle, got out and was increadibly aggressive from the get go. He reminded me of a wigged out control freak that was looking to hurt someone physically. I was scared as he continued to threaten me verbally and had already put me in handcuffs very violently.
He ran my name and found out that I was in fact “clean”. By this time, once my identity was confirmed another officer had arrived. He arrived in time to hear the dispatcher say that I was totally clean and told the first cop to let me go. The second officer was really mellow and sensible and tried to tell him to release me. The first cop refused immeadiately stating that he was going to teach me a lesson for not stopping when he was yelling at me from his moving vehicle and that he was charging me with “resisting arrest”. I got forcibly put in the car and driven to the sheriffs department in Marin.
Once at the Sherriffs department I was beaten by 3 deputies. My nightmare had begun. This was the first attack of many more over the next 39 days that I endured. I was housed at the Marin location for only a few days and eventually transported to a place in San Jose that was a nightmare. They didn’t even have my name in the system at the San Jose location and if anyone was trying to find me they wouldn’t have any record of me in this facility. I was beaten again and again and assaulted with needles. I was being given injections of a very powerful drug that made me drool and lose motor function in my legs. I was housed in a freezing cell that was about 5feet by 11 feet and with an eight inch steel door with a little tiny sliver sized window in it. I was petrified. There was no reason that I should have ever ended up in this sort of place because I had done nothing wrong and I was scared because threats were being made to other “inmates” about cutting off their hands and performing surgery on them to remove certain body parts. They even went in with riot gear on some of the people there, fully intending on using mace and clubs on these people that were behind thick steel locked doors that couldn’t possibly harm the guards that were harassing them.
I endured this for 39 days. Some of the guards would walk by the small window and tell me what other paid employees wanted me dead. I couldn’t figure out why the hell I was there. Why was that happening to me at all, I had done nothing to these people, nor did I even know them. I was just a girl from Sonoma County minding my own business on the day that they abducted me.
I starved while at this facility for about 15 days and was losing hope for anything normal because what I was going through shouldn’t have happened to a normal person.
When I was finally released from this facility, I could barely walk as I had lost my equilibrium as well as some of the motor function in my thighs. Everytime I tried to walk anywhere I would literally “tip” over and start to fall toward the ground face first. It took an entire month for me to learn how to walk comfortably and to stop random drooling. Psychologically I was traumatized.
I was told that this happened to me because they thought that I was “doing”. They beat, kidnapped, and invaded my body with drugs, threatened to cut off my feet and a number of other things because they though that I was “doing”.
I don’t ever have sex so I am totally confused as to how they arrived at this assumption in the first place but again dirty cops aren’t usually concerned with truth.
I am no lawbreaker, I am not a sex offender, I don’t kill people, I don’t steal and I don’t ever have sex so basically I was attacked for no apparent reason.
Now I’ve got creepy people trying to give me permission to touch my own body. How creepy and how do I get these people out of my life.
They sit next to you, have a conversation and 30 minutes later accuse you of “doing” them during the conversation and proceed to tell you that during this encounter that they were “a kid”, falsely accusing you of somehow being attracted to them sexually (which would mean according to them that you were attracted to a child---are you kidding me?) and penalizing you for exchanging conversation. It is their belief that by giving you an ultimatum during this period that they are ridding the earth of possible sex offenders. The whole thing is absolutely preposterous if you ask me and if you really want to know what I think, I think they should all find themselves therapy for trying to mentally mind f--- you in the first place. They then offer to take over your children and you can have them back when they see fit.
At this given moment, for no apparent reason I have been given so many ultimatums that make no sense to me in the first place that my head feels like spinning. These stalkers are not only trying to get me committed, but are demanding that I give them various increments of “time” until they are satisfied that their cause has been properly addressed.
I’m not falling for it. This is my life, Im no terrorist, nor am I a criminal and if I want to enjoy a portion of it without their demands or presence in it that’s alright by me. I don’t do drugs or smoke cigarettes and for the most part don’t even drink except on occasion, but I’ll be damned if Im going to continue to allow a bunch of strangers to constantly push me around just because they have control issues. These stalking people pop up everywhere, wherever I go and its always another ultimatum or “deal” they are trying to make with me. I don’t even know these strangers why on earth would they think that I was making some sort of “deal” with them. I don’t even know them! They are so involved in their own war that they just assume they are taking me prisoner. They assume they have some sort of right to be in my county, they aren’t even from here and I wish they would go the bleep home. Apparently the people where they are from don’t tolerate being “controlled” so they had to venture out and find some innocent person to bully. They actually think that they are going to be included in the rest of my life. Im not dumb, I can see that there is no benefit to any of this and that they just do this to anyone that doesn’t see what they really are up to. The whole thing is totally bizarre. They say things like “take your time” constantly and I look at them and shake my head thinking “you really think Im falling for this made up version of reality, don’t you?”
They now have even tried to use my son in their wars and drama, using his health and well being as a threat to me if I don’t give in to their demands. Im disgusted with how these kind of people are allowed air on this planet. Im so tired of someone deciding they want something and bullying someone till they get it. I write something and they “decide” that they should be able to profit from it…..I have a baby and they “decide” that they should be the ones to raise him. Why are you in my life in the first place and why are you “deciding” anything at all about your lazy ass intentions of making a quick buck off me and my life. There is only one place for these individuals and it seems like they are far from home, if you know what I mean.
Not only all this but these people follow you around and wait for opportunities to hurt you and your life and loved ones when they feel as if you have been, in their words, "okay". When they dont get their way, they physically attack you, lie about you to the community and sabotage you. In their creepy group of people they get together and decide who and what is "just" to happen to you for you having your own personality. This is their favorite thing to punish you for....your own personality. Then they think that you should have to spend your day jumping through hoops that they set forth. I have things I have to accomplish, Im not playing your game. I was never playing your dumb ass control hungry games.
Oh yeah and the other thing they think that when you blog on a website that they own you when you log on....these people think that everything is up for grabs. Nothing to them is ever not worth competing over. Some of these people have competed over words, yes small words like "the" "yes" trying to establish ownership of the word itself. Words that have been in the dictionary for hundreds of years are now being fought over by these people. All of it is totally out of control. I wont be raising my son around any of these people.
Now Im being told that the federal benefit I qualify for means that if I use it (what its there for) that I then belong to a certain group. ITS A FEDERAL PROGRAM ALLOWED TO EVERYONE, YOU DONT OWN ME, MY LIFE, OR EXISTANCE BASED ON SOMETHING EVERY AMERICAN IS ENTITLED TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM NOT AGREEING TO PROSTITUTE MYSELF BY ACCEPTING A FEDERAL CHECK. I AM NOT AGREEING TO A "DEAL" BY ACCESSING FEDERAL AID. I AM NOT A CRIMINAL AND I DONT HAVE TO MAKE SUCH DEALS TO BEGIN WITH. I AM REALLY TIRED OF YOU THINKING THAT EVERYTHING ABOUT MY LIFE IS UP FOR NEGOTIATION. AGAIN, I AM NOT PLAYING YOUR GAME. I AM NOT A HUSTLER, I TELL THE TRUTH AND HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY HONEST WITH THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT ABOUT GETTING AIDE. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO PAINT A PICTURE OF ME THAT IS TOTALLY INACCURATE. LOTS OF RESPECTABLE PEOPLE GET ASSISTANCE AT LEAST ONCE IN THEIR LIVES AND I AM NOT ASHAMED OF QUALIFYING FOR A PROGRAM THAT IS OFFERED. I'VE ONLY RECEIVED AIDE FOR A SHORT TIME AND INTEND ON GETTING A JOB WHEN MY SON'S HEALTH STABILIZES, HOW DARE YOU TRY AND MAKE ME LOOK LIKE SOME TWO BIT CRIMINAL HUSTLER FOR BEING HONEST AND NEEDING SOME ASSISTANCE. I PAID INTO THIS PROGRAM SINCE I WAS 16 YEARS OLD (I'VE ALWAYS WORKED). AND NO, I HAVEN'T HAD SEX SINCE I GOT PREGNANT 39 WEEKS AGO. NICE TRY THOUGH.