Lost everything I was fighting for because I conveniently as usual got a raging sinus infection that rendered me incapacitated completely

Had to go back into las vegas after becoming so sick that I could no longer be outside and of course it couldn't have happened at a worse time.....Im extremely resilient so for me to be incapacitated by sickness is pretty extreme.....Im frustrated, and sick of being referred to as a prostitute when I have never been one......I went to the only place that I had left to go to to be sick.......Im stuck in the middle of all these people and I am totally getting lost in the shuffle, I feel like giving up completely as all my struggle only seems to have the same outcome, me alone, by myself with no love and homeless (ten years of established history has proven this).............................................................The good thing is this, I Am Free but only in a certain direction and they dont seem to know this....as I am still being treated like endentured servant, when Im not.............I went through five thousand times what the other girls did and still nothing for me ever...................Went to the hospital the night of the 13th and had an ultrasound done as I couldn't understand the reason my abdomin kept moving around from the inside and was told that it was my intestines and that they were in fact moving around and alot and that there wasn't an explanation as to why they were so mobile but that for all intents and purposes there was no baby but it was understood why I had thought something was wrong or had thought that perhaps I may be pregnant.....ST. Rose Hospital the Siena Campus is the hospital I was at starting at 7:00 pm and was discharged at 10:23 pm (I was not at the Lima Campus of St. Rose although i did hear that as usual my hospital visit was used to make the other girl look like she was me except she was at the Lima Campus and there to BLOW some officer or something.) I love how i get laughed at and made fun of when I am smarter than a lot of the people I am surrounded by................................................................................Also the girl that keeps having sex with various people all over vegas has now changed her sexual style to match mine, obviously to create more hardship to me as now all of vegas still thinks that I am actively having sex when i haven't had sex in 5 weeks (today is 3/15/13) I guess this is probably my mistake because in an effort to defend the multiple times she had sex using my identity I told the world that I dont even make any noise while having sex so no she has gone from the moaning queen of the century to completely silent while she's being fucked (this bitch is seriously bound for all kinds of bad shit as she is officially doing this shit on purpose to me now)......................................................................................................Also researched Craigslist the night before last to see what is going on around town since I am increadibly intelligent and can read between the lines and it was said that the plan lately is to kidnap me and bring me to a ten bedroom mansion where I will be forced to participate in a snuff film while being abused and for god only knows how long and then knifed in the stomach and killed thrown in a dumpster and then all involved can collect the insurance policies on my life.........The beatings I have been enduring were coined as "preparation for the movie" (exact verbage on Craigslist) I am still sick with a massive sinus infection/flu and have to stay where Im at at least tonight and find another place to stay tomorrow............I have been in Las Vegas since 10/10/12 and then all the fucking stalkers and ex-boyfriends infultrated las vegas destroyed my reputation with lies and now have told me that i have been getting beaten up because i was told to "go away"............Here is how I feel about all of this, first of all, I was here first and arrived here in an effort to once again rebuild my life after the previous destruction that was caused to me by other greedy as fuck people, second if an individual tells me to go away that is all that is required as I have no interest in continuing to try to be around anyone that doesn't want me around and if they told you different they straight up lied to you as only one person has told me to go away since I have been in Vegas (his name is Todd) and that is all it took for me to say "not a problem" and i have not since seen or tried to see him as we were not some sort of couple to begin with (he told me to go away around February 25, and I have no urge to go around him anyway as I originally thought he may be a friend and later found out that as usual just another tactical manuever to get him to the person of his choice, third, if you tell me to go away from an entire city I say you dont have the right to ask this of me or anyone else as you have been getting away with forcing me to go away from every city I have ever tried to build a home in and for the last ten years in a row............You dont have the right to start beating me up and stealing my money because I was here first and then your brought your fucking rediculous posse here that obviously has to wait for me to do something like move here before they decide on the next "it" city to move to---i was here first and most of you are in fact no brain having cant think for yourselves leaches that need me to do the trail blazing before you even think to go somewhere so Ive had it with you and caring about anything you ask of me, if I do go away it will only be for awhile as my last $170 has been stolen from me and i have no way to afford being in a heartless place that wont help you if you have no resources of your own (all mine have been stolen) Also was accused of tresspassing at Excaliber for walking through their parking lot on my way to the crosswalk (are you fucking serious?) Me and a hundred other people apparently were tresspassing trying to get to the walkway, while in New York New York casino I was attacked by five security guards and told at first that I had taken someone elses property and that the excalibur wanted to see me......once I produced a claim check for the property that i was accused of having that they said wasn't mine, they changed their story and said that they excalibur wanted to see me for supposedly tresspassing....I then was dragged from NY NY casino to the excalibur in handcuffs, once there i was sited for tresspassing when I hadn't even set foot in the excalibur..........I cant believe the lies told just to beat and humiliate me and its been going on like this for ten years........Lets take a look at my life.............................................................................1 I have a selfish bitch that is intentionally fucking every man in Las Vegas and trying to make it look like its me............................2..I have a bunch of men that I once loved so unselfishly using me to fuck the girl of their dreams, humiliate me on national television (American Idol) and claim that they loved me once in the process when the entire definition of love never includes national humiliation even after the relationship is over, so I know they didn't love me but did use me as a catapult to fame and fortune and notariety since I was in Vegas way before they were and still dont understand why ALL OF THEM would practically move to Vegas after I chose this city to rebuild my life away from them since none of them had displayed any interest in me to begin with so why not start over in another place.....Why did they feel the need to move to the city that I was in after I had left them behind wishing them the best with their lives and assuming they had no interest in me, why did they move to the place where I was at and start having sex with every female on earth and right under my nose while claiming that they loved me.........Not one of them ever told me they loved me or had any interest in me at all so I got on with my life and moved to Vegas......How can you believe that any of these men ever loved me to do this to me them knowing how much love I had for them to do all this to me right under my nose (the sex with other women, the national humiliation and then they banded together to do this to me when i left them on such a positive note saying of course you know i love you but I realize you dont feel the same so have a good life.....I have been fully taken advantage of completely by them............and yes I did love them, but now the side of them that they have shown to me is ..... there are no words for the side of themselves that they have been displaying toward me and I just keep shaking my head in disbelief wondering how i was so head over heals in love with people that could do this to me and why they would do this sort of thing to someone that had never harmed them or had bad intentions toward them ever and only had unselfish love toward them---they meant the world to me and it was difficult to come to Vegas and just tell myself that they aren't ever gonna love me so make a new life but i pushed through the lonliness and managed to try and make a life which they quickly dismantled with the help of American Idol (I am not claiming that all involved in American Idol are to blame).......................................4..I have another ex boyfriend and his girlfriend that are planning on using me in a snuff film and then gutting me to death, not only that but his girlfriend is a dumb vicious fucking shit starter for no reason (she's one of those people that demonstrates her power by displaying unusual levels of cruelty toward a populus putting people in fear rather than what an actual leader is where they include the populus's wants and needs within the leadership, she is just straight up tierany and that is how she amasses everything (its all got to be about her or else)....................................5..I get treated like a hooker everyday when I have never been one which isn't that big of a deal except to the man that wanted to be with me recently (him and about 3 others that loved and were considering being with me).............................6..I have the left side of government wanting to attatch a penis to me (give me a sex change when I have never in the history of mankind ever even wanted one or wanted to be a man (they dont seem to take no for an answer either).........................................................7..After going through every possible thing known to mankind (beatings, rapes, kidnappings, forced travel, forced homelessness for eight years and not in a homeless shelter kind of homelessness,) for my cousins and my childhood friend as well as an ex boyfriend I have now been told that I now have to become a lesbien after everthing else I have been through in order to continue to prove my love for people that haven't actually done shit to prove anything to me......needless to say, I am not a lesbien and asking me to become one is definitely where i draw the line.......what my actual problem is with this situation is this.....When has one of them ever had to go through 1/1000 of what i have done for them for me....it isn't a competition but it seems that no matter how much selfless love i have displayed there is always another person that hasn't done 1/1000 of what I have done for them being held in high esteem by them and the rest of the population and all I get out of it is usually another beating........I AM NOT HAVING A SEX CHANGE OPERATION NOR AM I BECOMING A LESBIEN, AND AM ASKING ALL LESBIENS TO FINALLY STOP SEXUALLY HARASSING ME AS IVE BEEN DEALING WITH IT FOR LONG ENOUGH, AND IT IS SEXUAL HARASSMENT............WRITING IN ALL CAPS IS SOMETHING i HAVE DONE SINCE I STARTED WRITING AND ISN'T AN INDICATION OF ANYTHING THAT YOU THINK IT MEANS SO PLEASE KEEP YOUR MEANINGS AND ASSOCIATIONS AWAY FROM ME AND MY LIFE AS YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO ATTATCH AT WILL THINGS TO ME THAT DONT HAVE ANY BEARING..............................................8..I AM HEARTBROKEN AS NOW I AM FACING HAVING TO KILL MYSELF WHEN ALL I WANTED WAS TO REBUILD MY LIFE IN A NEW PLACE AND GET ON WITH MY LIFE --- I AM NOT THE FASHIONABLY HEARTBROKEN EITHER, I AM ACTUALLY HEARTBROKEN THAT MY LIFE IS IN SHAMBLES WHEN I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO PUT IT HERE ONCE AGAIN, JUST ANOTHER ROUND OF CAREFULLY PLANNED SABOTAGE AND I HAVE NO ONE AND NO SUPPORT AND PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE SHIT AT ALL TIMES, EVEN THE PEOPLE THAT I HAVE PUT FOOD IN THEIR FRIDGE TREAT ME LIKE SHIT BECAUSE NOW ITS FASHIONABLE TO DO TO ME.......MY QUESTION IS..........WHY HAVE YOU CHOSEN TO DO SHIT LIKE THIS TO SOMEONE THAT ALWAYS LOVED YOU FOR ALL YOUR GOOD AND BAD QUALITIES AND NEVER ONCE JUDGED YOU OR YOUR ACTIONS AND ALWAYS STUCK UP FOR YOU AND GAVE YOU THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT WHEN YOU LOOKED TO THE WORLD LIKE AN AWEFUL PERSON.....WHY ME?....................................................................................................... aND EVERYONES BIGGEST PROBLEM WITH ME ALL OVER VEGAS IS......................THEY THINK I EAT TO MUCH, i EAT LIKE A PIG ACCORDING TO THEM...............i HAVE NO ONE ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH TO OFFER ME PEACE, LOVE OR COMFORT, LET ALONE FRIENDSHIP AND THIS IS WHAT YOU COME UP WITH........WHAT DO YOU SUGGEST I DO WITH THE MASSIVE GASHES YU PUT IN MY HEART AND SOUL? i EAT LIKE A PIG? aT LEAST I'VE NEVER DONE TO YOU WHAT YOU SO EASILY DO TO ME........OVEREATING KEEPS ME FROM BEHAVING IN A MEAN SPIRITED WAY THAT DOESN'T EVEN COME NATURALLY TO BEGIN WITH BUT LATELY YOUR TOTALLY PUSHING ME TOWARD WITH YOUR SHALLOWNESS.